A Lot Has Been Going On

I have to remind myself, that if I want everything to be over; how many people want my position, how I worked so hard for this. I know how God loves me, He gives me strong back so I can fight all these things.



Day 4 - Meaning Behind Your Blog Name

hari-harinya dyla

Simply like that! this blog is purely what happened in my life, all ups and downs, good and bad things, know me better just read my blog (and instagram), I am a very honest girl (so pede bgt ya) but that's true guys, I can't barely lie. I don't believe people easily. I, whenever think that someone isn't that compatible and click with me I just go, I find myself just like that. That's why, it's not easy to be with me, though I am actually cheerful and bubble I am for some people is not like that though the environment and socially I am awkward. When I am open with someone, I am OPEN like they can dig everything about me, honest elf etc. And I don't like someone who make assumption, meet me in my bad mood and think that I am as bad as when I am in my bad mood.


Day 3 - Your Day in Great Detail (More Like.. What's On My Mind)

Yesterday I forget to write, I didn't touch my laptop and as far as I remember I do nothing in particular except sleeping till noon then playing with my phone till dawn. Thus, I will just make it as a normal diary, as day passed I do it today and what happened in these few days.

I feel this last two weeks at home, Surabaya, doesn't feel right. I don't make the best as I could in this Holy Month. I feel pressured and knowing what kind of situation between people that are close to me bother me a lot. We talk about someone who is old enough yet he's like a kid, although I do too sometimes, but I just feel it's not right, he's way older than me.

My sister, studies at one of the best institution in my country and she got the best score out of many people in her batch, she studies Arc, I know from my mom that she don't get enough sleep. I can see it from her Panda eyes, yet I really like to tease her. I look myself and feel more proud of her, I remember I cried when she got accepted to her dream uni and decided to choose architect. I know she's smart, me too (defensive), she listens to parents while I don't. I am a maverick. Then I look up myself, my IP is indeed high, but not the highest, but studying in Jogjakarta and in my campus makes me relieved cause it is not as stressful as the others. I can still traveling with my friends while manage to do piles of works.