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When you were down, I was on the up. I comforted you and told you everything will pull through. When I was the one who was weak, you’re the one who was strong. You convinced me that this is the right journey to take, and we cannot turn back now.

And that’s how we got here, D :)


Nikah Muda

bride wannabe
Dulu aku kepikiran nikah kalo pas dah sukses, karir gemilang sehingga bisa provide apa yang aku dan keluargaku mau, biayain keluarga buat jalan-jalan ke luar negri dan belanjaannya, usaha lancar, dah punya rumah besar serta mobil etc etc. Sampai mikir nikah kalo udah mau umur 30an ajadeh karena biar puas-puasin apa-apa sendiri dulu, biar ego ku tersalurkan, biar udah punya semuanya dan biar legaaa.

Itu dulu ya, sebelum nemu tambatan hati. Soalnya seumur-umur belum pernah deket sama cowo sampai akhirnya sekarang dia datang, hehe. Dan karena dia, aku rasanya pingin cepet-cepet nikah biar halal sih kalo kata orang, lol.

Tapi gimana ya, pingin nikah muda tuh aku ya pingin, menghabiskan waktu berdua bareng doi, bangun tidur, sarapan, berangkat kerja, pas lagi nonton soap operas sore-sore, udah malam dan seterusnya kaya di film-film kebanyakan. Tapi kalau udah ada duitnya, lah kalo ngga ada? Gimana biayainnya? Ngutang? Habis nikah nanti hasil gajiannya buat bayarin utang nikahan dong bukan buat keluarga? Orangtua? Hmmm... pikir-pikir lagi deh, ini loh yang nikah siapa kok duitnya dari siapa? Kecuali, kalo emang nikahan mau diatur sama orangtuanya :)

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for every word that bleeds,
for every sins that I did,
and silence that speak

a never ending surprise,
an emphasizing of the moment,

poles, roles, fores

your pointy nose,
wavy hair,
super tan skin,



Crying Isn't Solution, but.. Really?

I have no one to talk, but I want to at least cry because the pressure that I have.

I kept telling mini me not to cry just because my favorite teacher told me that crying isn't a solution. Well, that's true. So, I became one of the "I should be crying but I just can't let it show" type but..

#np everglow by coldplay


A Day In November

My boyfriend went to my place last month. I mean, he came to see me since we are apart.

We ate ceker or chickens' feet. And I asked him to buy some to eat at his place because it was sooo delicious. We ate and we laughed and while I was eating, my boyfriend cleaned his clothes. He kept cleaning the room, searching for another piece of clothes although it was clearly clean. I looked at him and kept eating while watching movies and playing with my iPad. Then he asked:
Him: "Sayang, ngga mau bantuin aku beres - beres ta ?"
Me: lirik him and put my iPad down
Me: "Sini, sayang aku bantuin berantakin bajunya biar ngga usah pulang."
And silence.

Last night he told me this story, which I think I know why he became sooo sad after that. Not he, but us. See you next year xx.


Him (1/sth)

He told me not to cry when he got back to his hometown. But, I can't. I tried to hold but it just break. Sorry, I couldn't do what you've asked me to.

I can no longer hold the tears that fill my eyes, I miss him so much.

I felt his absence. It was like waking up one day with no teeth in your mouth. You wouldn't need to run to the mirror to know they were gone. The feeling is just the same as him.

It may sounds exaggerating but you don't understand it unless you've been in it, unless you felt it. It's like set of arrows hit your chest after listening to each other's voices plus a good night. And you start wondering how a good night can feel like a good bye.

Sometimes, your eyes start to fill up with tears because it's bittersweet feeling. Because when you hang the phone up, you are alone again.

This may sound cheesy but, there will be some posts that talk about him. The one who fill the half of me, d.



Aku yang dulu tidur tiap jam tujuh bangun jam lima,
sekarang rela menunggu kamu hingga larut.
Pulang tengah malam,
menunggumu bermain bersama kawan-kawan mu.

Mereka bilang,
Jangan mau sama dia.
Kata mereka,
kamu playboy kelas akut.
Nakal dan bukan tipe anak baik.

Mereka bertanya,
kenapa kamu mau sama dia?

siapa mereka?
Tau apa mereka?

They say that too much of anything is not good for you,
but, if it's loving you, I'd rather be bad.

ps: hari ini UN selesai.
Walau susah banget, tetap semangat & semoga lulus 100%!



have you ever loved someone too much 
that everytime you think 
you don't care about him anymore 
it turns out wrong 
as soon as you see him?

I do. 


27/03/2014 at 15:17

2013 was great. I found someone whom my self feel better around him. Talk to him, and whenever I talk to him, my heart starts doing some kind of dubstep. Silly, I know. But, it's my time to feel kind of dubstep. It's the year when my body produce lots of hormon. Ok, it actually means, this 'creature' is special.

In 2013. I finally have a brother! Although he is unrelated brother but I'm feeling so happy to be around him. Things that I barely know about him is; he's suck at keeping his body health. He has to eat lots of medicine, go to hospital often, has to prepare for surgery next month, and he's way taller than me. But, after all, he is a good friend of mine, he's the one I can spend my time talking about (un/necessary) things, when I'm sad, he always ready to calm me down. And, sometimes he acts sweet although being sweet doesn't suit him.

Once, when I was sad and my eyes become so puffy. He called me and play me a song. The song which I requested few months before. And he purposely left the exam time to bring a car for taking me home. (Since I don't ride motorcycle, he he).

After all, 2013 was great. And I hope 2014 much better than this year. I hope, I can get accepted to all university that I have applied. Manage my relationship with people whom I love, & everything will be better. Amen.

ps: this post was made late. -- 27/03/2014 at 15:17


Cuddle Application

self is being a dork. but i love thing like this. it's cute. and I can collect all the application that people have sent. and yes, you can send yours to me! by email maybe? Have a great day!


Back to The Generation

I just wanna go back to the generation when a guy had to get permission from the girl's parents to ask her out. 

I wanna go back to the generation where a guy would physically call her or talk to her, not text.

wanna go back to the generation where your fist kiss would be your spouse, not hookup with a guy you meet on the club.

wanna go back to the generation where the guy wanted a girl, not always just sex.

wanna go back to the generation where couples slow danced, not grind.

wanna go back to the generation where love actually made sense.


"The woman is the reflection of her man." - Brad Pitt

"My wife got sick. She was constantly nervous because of problems at work, personal life, her failures and problems with children.

She has lost 30 pounds and weighted about 90 pounds in her 35 years. She got very skinny, and was constantly crying. She was not a happy woman.

She had suffered from continuing headaches, heart pain and jammed nerves in her back and ribs. She did not sleep well, falling asleep only in the morning and got tired very quickly during the day.

Our relationship was on the verge of break up. Her beauty was leaving her somewhere, she had bags under her eyes, she was poking her head, and stopped taking care of herself.

She refused to shoot the films and rejected any role. I lost hope and thought that we’ll get divorced soon…

But then I decided to act on it. After all I’ve got the most beautiful woman on the earth. She is the idol of more than half of men and women on earth, and I was the one allowed to fall asleep next to her and to hug her shoulders.

I began to pamper her with flowers, kisses and compliments. I surprised her and pleased her every minute. I gave her lots of gifts and lived just for her. I spoke in public only about her. I incorporated all themes in her direction. I praised her in front of her own and our mutual friends.

You won’t believe it, but she blossomed. She became even better than before. She gained weight, was no longer nervous and she loved me even more than ever. I had no clue that she CAN love that much.

And then I realized one thing: The woman is the reflection of her man.

If you love her to the point of madness, she will become it. " - Brad Pitt, A Secret of Love


Missing Piece

I think I like you, I have all the symptoms...
Where are you? Why haven't you called? Why haven't you wanted to know what I'm doing, or where I am, do you even care?


Sudah lama ya tidak berjumpa. Terakhir kali, di dunia maya. Tiap hari cerita dan tidak pernah bosan. Kadang cerita penting, tapi kebanyakan nggak pentingnya sih. Gabut - gabut gitu isinya. Tapi, aku senang. Kadang sampe, dibaca ulang. Haha. Yahh, namanya juga remaja. Kalau ngga ngalamin masa kaya beginian, rasanya ada yang kurang. Tapi, yang namanya remaja, hidup masih panjang, ketemu orang juga baru beberapa. Kedepan rintangan makin menghadang, godaan juga makin ngga karuan. Gini udah banyak aja yang sok tahu, sok dewasa gitu. Ngga menutup kemungkinan aku juga kok. Hehe.

Kisah paling klasik di masa remaja itu ya apalagi kalo bukan cinta-cintaan. Ngerasa dia the one and only terus akhirnya ya gitudeh, pacaran terus ada yang putus, selingkuh dsb. Tapi ngga doain juga maksudnya. Ada kok, yang sudah jalan beberapa tahun terus akhirnya nikah kok. Jangan khawatir!

Kalo jomblo sih mikirnya masih gitu.

Tapi, saat kalian sama-sama suka, rasanya beda. Rasanya, kaya this relationship will be forever. Terserah masih terlalu muda apa gimana, kalo emang rasanya gitu ya gitu.


Ngga penting sih postingan ini. Ngga banget malah. Nanti ada yang ngatain, alay gitu, galau gitu jadinya, huaha. Biarin deh ah, sekali-sekali dikatain galauan, alay gitu ngga papa kok. Emang aku alay.


Sudah selesai ah galau-galaunya.
Aku juga sudah lega.


The Flawless Bud

I'm congratulating myself, for being able to struggle this week. But, then I'm suffering from fever and massive headache because I need to go to another city thrice in a week (which I have to sit in the bus approximately 4 hours in a day) to do some tests (plus its extended papers which are very difficult!!). I think I need more time to rest. But counting the days, final exam in a week and I need to catch all the schedules that I've left. Lessons, organizations that I'm in, few deadlines and many more.

I have to work my ass off then.

Anyway, there are some of questions that I got from friend but haven't answers.
But the question is mostly same, I mean, the questions are different but I think all of them are same, since those words dancing in front of my eyes telling me how weird I am.

  1. Why you are weird? (you know what I mean)
  2. Why you have your own world but weird?
  3. Why use many languages if you are talking / send me texts / chatting?
  4. Why the way you think about something is quite different from people. Its kinda weird but that's okay. But what exactly first thing you are thinking before you think like that?
  5. Living in a happy life?

1. I myself think that I'm not weird even in people's eyes I am. Idgaf bro, jinca. I enjoy my stay. I sometimes forget what do I have to do. I, rarely listen to others' words. What you mean by weird probably because you don't understand me and you don't have your own world yet. You don't enjoy your stay. You probably envy because I do enjoy mine. I suggest you to enjoy your stay, because by enjoying it, you don't have to care about others. And you'll live to the fullest. // 2. If my world and others are same, I don't have something that can differentiated me then. But, it doesn't mean if I force myself to have different world compare with people. Since child, I always different. I ain't pro-claimed self, but society keeps telling me I am. And, what do I think about myself? Am I weird? I'm not weird, I just different (which I believe everyone is). // 3. To improve myself. // 4. Well I can't explain that because, it just me. // 5. Sure, I do! I do what I love & I love what I do.

I used to think anyone doing anything was weird. Now I know that it is the people that call others weird that are weird ~ Sir Paul McCartney 

☼ ♥ ☼ ♥ ☼ ♥ 

And, you know;
when you love someone,
everytime you hear his/her crush voice..
Everything becomes better.

It's nice that I can hear his voice♫♪
everytime I want to sleep
G☻☺d thing!


I couldn't see you when you were here.
And now that you're gone. I see you everywhere.

You know, I ain't good at love.
I mean, I always put my dignity too high
and lie to myself over and over.



Future Application

It may silly but it's cute to know that you fill this application, print it & tell your partner if you'd like to do these things, <3


Send This To Your Partner Wanna Be

So please, tell me what do you feel. Speak up. How I'm suppose to know what's wrong? How I'm suppose to know what's going on? I didn't mean anything by doing this and that. I didn't mean anything, when you said I made you hurt.